Nvr Underestimate The Ego Of A Politician

Not who. . .not if. . .not why. . .
-Rachel Sexton-

Just finish reading Deception Point.. A novel from Dan Brown...as brilliant as he is..it is still exciting and sumhow..i feel that the other 3 is more exciting than this one..although it is still a very good one from him..

took me at least 9 hours to finish this book...done..zilts..

>.< *rub eyes* tired..ofcuz...start reading it at the airport on my way to JB...stop at page 257, and finish it when im bak here at the Penang airport while waiting for Jason to pick me up from the departure hall..all in all 585 pages.

lot of Quotes in the book send me thinking in my mind...sigh...enuff on that matter...

* * * * * *
the time over at JB sure passes as fast as hell..and like usual..i always had the best time of my life over there..thx to everyone...sumtimes..i really thinks that ppl from JB are the greatest ppl in the world...even their parents... either that or i juz the luckiest person in the world...meeting the best ppl along my way in life... have u ever meet ur fren parents who really treat u guys like their own children?

make the bed for u..make jokes with u and care for ur health like ur own parents... i've meet them...all at JB..and we r not blood related..

to me...those ppl in JB are my family..elder brothers and elder sisters... till now how i come so far in 20 years...i m still that inconsiderate asshold until i met them...it change my life drastically...

i dun mean tat the frens bak in Penang is not as good...but its juz tat they see more different things and teach me more of the different ideas in life..

while in Penang, my frens are all very supportive and still, clinging on to find wat they wan in life and achieving it..

i juz cant find the best way and the most suitable words to tell all my frens tat i luv them dearly and i m willing to stand in front of the bullet for them if there is by chance they are getting assasinated......hahahahahhahahahaha....watch too much novel ady...=P

these few days in JB..indeed makes me happy and makes me a better person..which i hope to do my best and go bak there soon..but ofcuz my mum and family first..=)

i m juz regret tat i cant do much for them, such us making them more happier and feel like they r lucky to have a fren lik me..i wish i can do more for them...to everyone..they sacrifice their time for me when i was there...and i m grateful for wat they did to me..

by making me their fren..=)
* * * * * *

Didnt went to SG as planned...cuz its SG it was their independence day...and for sure...lik any place in the world, it will b fucking crowded..

so let it be...i rather spend times with my frens and share topics and see how is each and everyone doing...

didnt took as much pics and i used too though...sigh...should have taken much eh?


pics = memories that last forever


but then...few group pics is often enuff for us to stare at it for a very long while and having thoughts of wat have we done tat day when we r together...aint it?

partial insanity

AAR IS COMING~~!!



*scream my lungs out!!! *



im a sucker for rock bands...sue me...=P

one of the plans..

im going to buy a bag...sumthing to carry everything when im over at New Zealand...or when im at UK, Europe..traveling with Jomay and Peter...hahaha...

i nid it to cover at least 3 ~ 4 days of shirt...so..i made up my decision to buy a deuter!
this Deuter!!! nice eh? i wish it has green colour...i GO GREEN baby!! hahaha...

it can carry up to 75lbs...tats quite a load...

was consideing to buy another bag juz for my DSLR...and a few more other lens..and a carry bag...do u guys have frens who sell bags lik ths? i checked..its around RM 535..



ok...i have this plan in mind...tat i would backpack for few months...out of country...i confirm on new zealand...UK and europe if i have the money..=)

egypt, venice...omg...those are the place i wanna to go as well...australia...

but now lets focus on UK,Europe and New zealand first...who have any idea or wanna go trvael together with me? lemme know awrite?

sum foreword...its a backpack trip..no fancy hotel or fancy restaurant..i will b staying anywhere and will plan to save money all the way...so..do let me know in advance...=)

its been a while...

so long since i last updated my blog..if it were'nt for Sophia telling me tat i havent update my blog for almost a month..i wouldnt even care..cuz..so many things to do and to be honest...ive been kipping myself bz with different kind of thoughts running through my mind...

reading articles...reading novels..all those stuff ppl normally find boring..=)..

awrite....updates!!

wats new with me....well...ive stop going to the office for about a month and a half now...but still i work frm home most of the time..cuz my mum is sick and only i m there to take care of her...ive to help with her work, doing documents...running from banks to banks...and still finished sum of my assignments from the company...

not only that...i do work as a housewife sumtimes...waking up in the morning earlier than usual and buy daily stuff from the market and get to know the different vendors and wat they sell..which vendors sells the freshest the stuff among the others...

not only tat...i cook my own food now..cuz i dun lik wat my maid cooks..she cook shits...hahaha..=P..seriously...she cooks shit..

let me giv u a head of wat she cooks....beehoon with french toast...as in...the beehoon inside the french toast...and she eats food which are 4 days old...urgh...which is not fresh and is not nutricious anymore...i buy vege everyday...which is fresh and why dun she juz cook those? =.=..

anyway...i dun online much now..as in MSN..only facebook and mails..and i miss SUBANG a lot!!! seriously....and ofcuz all my frens down there..everyone seems to have their own issues...own problem..and it up to them to solve it..which i can help...all i can do is to listen and tell them wat i think..i dun even think tat i should tell them wat i think..

cuz it mayb change how other ppl thinks..like im giving they input on other things tat makes ppl change their direction..=.=...i also dunnno wat im talking about...how do i put this.....erm...

gimme a call and i'll explain..hahahaha..=P




oh ya...i've been down to subang few weeks ago...so sry i didnt go down for the UniSA's graduation guys...so sry..but i did went down a week later..to meet a good fren of mine which we knew online and we nvr even see each other b4..=)...she is here for the holidays...and i even get to meet her bf...Phil..a very nice guy who we hav a lot to talk about..but too bad they have to rush and going bak to Melbourne the next few days...but we will meet again..for sure..=)

not only tat, i also catch up with sum of the classmates from DIB...and thx to my best fren...he let me drives his Mini Cooper S!! and which i fell in love with the moment i touch the steering wheel.... *amin, sell me ur car pls....=P*.....


this post is too long i guess...will continue on a 2nd post...kip checking bak..awrite guys? =) luv ya all..

im energizer according to Jean!

*take a deep breath...*

arhhhhh~ the smell of fresh post in the early morning...

*lame*

i m still awake at this wee hour...i miss the smell of early morning...*sniff sniff*

today....

went to manhattan fish market at nite with Ray...who juz came bak from Russia and who i stood him up yesterday without me noticing im doing it...damn! i muz b stupid...really stupid..

it was raining lik elephant and mice..* i lik to be different..mind me..cat n dogs r such old nag now..=P*..and when i get inside..my pants was soaking wet..wtf..and i saw Jean...JEAN! wat a coincidence..with cuttlefish<---his gal~

we hang out at 1 am yesterday at Pelita...nvr tot i would saw him over there..

and guess wat...


i saw REENZ! well tats not her real name...her real name is....real name is.....is dreams to fly!..*wat the heck i forgot to ask ur name! >.<*

she was walking pass us to the loo and i felt the face was soooo familiar...wow...cool~

manhattan brought me to c u..=) cool...belated congrats on ur graduation!!!...*awkward...dunno wat to say now...sry didnt ask for ur name...was kinda nervous...>.<*

soooo.........its 6 in the morning now...gotta head to bed soon..haha...>.<...




LAMEST ENTRY EVAAAAAA!!!

stay strong mummi!!

Theres this sumone who is the one tat teaches me and make me who i m today..

the one that who first started let me go my own way and nvr stopped me..

who ask me to go free and i m grateful for wat she had told me cuz...i m quite independent now..

that sumone is my mum...

Today...my mum will went through surgery to have her tumor being removed..

its probably a small surgery...and i dunno much about the tumor..but still..there's risk..

juz wanna tell her...mummi....I luv U!!

Hope u get through this fast and painless!

b strong lik how u always had been..dun giv up!


*i sounded very dramatic rite? but i m worried...=(*

500GB monster

i get this thing...which i really really needed rite now..



yes!!! i bought the 500GB for my laptop...my lappie is going to beat the crap out of every other lappie in the world!!! *evil laugh pun attended* muahahahahahahahahahahhahahahha~eat this piece of crap Microsoft!

juz kidding...been cloning my old harddisc and run out of time...so this is how i transfer my files from the old HD to the new ones..cun eh?? hahaha....suits ppl who run around lik me! cherio fuckio!!

a note to sumone who is close to me..

To XXX,

why would u wan sumthing which is a piece of crap rather than a beautiful one waiting for u at home? i dun get it...and i dunno how to tell u tat i dun lik it at all!! even for a bit!


now all hell break lose...how do u feel about tat? i juz dun get it...sigh..



from ur fucking sincere sumone,
gummy..=.=

Vincent the Kacuak Man!

well...let me see...this is going to be a few post thingy...

i'll start with the first to leave me here in this fucking island awrite...let start with the person who r going to East Malaysia and start a new life* over there...



*start a new life = find a wife, build a house from using wood, having sexual relationship with a new gadis tempatan, and kapoot..come out a new generation tat calls me uncle..hahaha...

Vincent Khor codename kacuak...haha...will talk about how he got tat name later=)

Kacuak

I first met him when i was on to a seminar in KL..Anthony Robbins seminar at Bkt.Jalil...we travel down by bus together and i believe at that time i was just 14 or 15 years old...

i can say tat i was the only one in my high school class tat listens to rock...and only english...and also tat time...jay..>.<...but then i had no one to share those music with..i listen to Jay cuz its like the only thing tat u can talk about with frens..without it..i would be very very pretty fucking lonely..hahaha...

so its kinda blur memory bak then but i believe we came very close and hang out every nite at that seminar..very fun..

bak then i dun really hang out with him..cuz i dun have a license and he stay freaking far..Kepala Batas...its like 45~1 hour drive from my house..if u r a driver like me then lets make it 30~40 mins..=)

we started to become brothers during the end of 2005..it was december, and my cousin brother juz started his college life at TBS subang...being the frens from Penang, they stay together in a dorm above the hardware store opposite the current Pork Noodles...or kwai san..weirdly, i dun stay much at my cousin's room...but i always stays at his room, we max the music from the small speaker of his, we imitate rock stars!!

we chat, he talks about his ex...and i talk about mine..i nvr do tat to other ppl..and i look up to him as an older brother of mine..we would juz go out late at nite and do stuff u know..like talking and knowing new frens...tats where i decided tat i wanted to go to Taylors..

on 2007, i moved in together to a new house with my cousin and him..from there, we get really close..the three of us..

there's a few things about him tat make him...a Vincent tat we all knew..

- he use to be a gangster in his highschool days..seriously..i mean look at his face..

- he slips lik there's no tomolo

anywhere!!

- by slipping lik there's no tomolo, he is very very very very hard to b awaken not even by kicking or punching..there's only one thing in the world can wake him up...chong ming's Alarm clock..haha..

- he eats lik tats the last thing in the world..he nvr stops eating...=.=...caught in action!

- and he likes spicy stuff...everytime we eat, he would ask the chef to add more chilli or make it spicy..
- being as funny as he is...he is stupid...hahahahaha!
- he has issues with guard..as in the ppl in the guard house..
- he lurves chocolate!!

there's this once we went to starbucks and coincidencely i bought him a pack of mix choki! and he juz order and ice blended choc from starbucks and started to mix the choki into the starbucks..and the result....

not only that, when i first came to subang, he ask me to buy him cadbury chocolate bars, reason is becuz he is having his mid terms and needed to release stress...so i bought him 2 huge size cadbury choco bar..and he finish it in one go...and in the end..fainted=.=...seriously fainted! until we kip slapping his face then he come bak to reality..fuck man..haha...


but then, he pull out from college when he is about to go to the states to further his studies, becuz of financial constraints from his family..since then, i've move to another place and things started to change..a lot..=(..

he started working for his dad bak at Kepala Batas..and we only hang out when i go bak to kulim which at tat point of time i rarely did..and so he promise tat he would come and visit us at least once a month...he did and we even went to redang together..my 1st trip to redang....and it was the best trip ever!

bak then, i was sooo screw up..and he is the only one i trust...even my parents trusted him...and he would sit down and talk to me on wats happening and going with me..i nvr had a elder brother tat consoles me..he is the one..

writing this post, thinking bak all those things tat we'd done...its hard to imagine tat he is going to east malaysia and the fact is tat we r not going to see each other any sooner...

but i have to continue writing anyway..so much to write! haha

July 2008, we plan to go to Koh samui, sumthing lik a bakpack trip but not entirely backpacking..haha..5 of us would go,Me, Vincent,Tommy,Luther and Jovienne..but in the end Jo didnt make it..internal complexitications i would say!! hahaha...tat trip i would remember my wholeee life..its a trip tat i would nvr forget...

i believe everyone knows tat story by now...i was taking pictures with my SLR when i suddenly slip into the sea and the last thing i shouted was "Vincentttttttt!!!!" and i gumbled and being washed away...by the time he is still filming and he heard me...he was freaking nervous and run towards me...who knows...he slip b4 even reaching my point and fell into the pussy hole himself...haha... the hole he fell into...

i climbed up myself and he did so as well...we were both soaking wet with me screwing up my DSLR and him screwing more...a New video cam

B4 he fell

a Handphone and sum electronic stuff...

luckily my bag was water proof...so the passport and everything inside is safe..and i left my laptop bak at the hotel...but still the DSLR cost me over 4k..and him...around the same...=P..luckily his Olympus is water proof but still screwed up in the last day of our trip..

me and him

and i still recall our budget hotel was situated high up the hills, and the locals use a 4X4 to bring ppl up and down from the hotel...but we went out till late nite and we have to go up ourselves..we drive our scooter to the foot hill and started driving up..its not easy as the condition of the road is badly maintain..its mud tat are still partly wet...so in the end he giv up and started to walk and i drive up myself...

4 of us joked and laugh all the way till the hill top..it was like a 20 mins walk...but we had fun! and i remember, when we reach the top, the engine from the scooter was bursting out with smoke...haha..over heated! and we juz sat on the floor laughing...

about his codename or nick kacuak..well..it all started when they were hanging out at Kenny Rogers..i wasnt at subang tat time..and they said he ordered a Iced Milo and starting drinking..then he sucked on till sumthing he felt like was the Milo Powder so he chew on it..but then...it wasnt...he spit it out only to find tat its a cockroach...a baby cockroach..i believe at that time...his expression is almost the same as this black dude here...hahahaha!imagine his expression!

since then, everyone started calling him kacuak...kacuak...kacuak means cockroach in hokkien!

gotta head to a meeting rite now...will continue this post later!

wat the~

random blog updates...


not really tat random..=.=


so many things to do...so much things to say...

i admit..i m juz as lazy as a snork to update my blog..

im starting to giving up on myself..

can i juz take a very very very long holiday for like 3 months and juz go to sumwhere else...?

who's with me? 100% no one!!!! =.=...

why m i writing this blog post? it sucked..will update a more proper one and delete this one..


till then stay cool~=)

I nid to go further!

arhhh~ its been a while since i last logged in here..

been so bz and lazy to update my blog..

so many things to think about and so many things to do..blogging is the least i can do but its the one tat can makes me feel better by writting it out..=)




was scanning through Tim Wallace photo gallery...i feel beaten...nid to work harder on my photography to ahieve sumthing lik dat!

buy more lights to try on different cars and different place..=)

will stop here at the moment..been alone in the office for days..but still kip finding stuff to do..got sumthing to show my boss when he comes back!

will update soon when i get the time awrite peeps? take good care of urself guys!!

dun get sick!

partial updates~

And my own two hands will comfort you tonight, tonight
Say when
And my own two arms will carry you tonight, tonight

Come close and then even closer
We bring it in but we go no further
We're separate two ghosts in one mirror, no mearer
Later on if it turns to chaos
Hurricane comin all around us
See the crack, pull it back from the window
You stay low
Say when~

See When by The Fray







*blow* *blow*
let me clean my blog for a while..>.<..lame..
means i havent change yet rite? =P

Updates!!

Ive been to redang and back ya'll..for the THIRD TIME!!!
and still..its as fun as ever!!! but to my surprise...a lot of corals have dead...its like kapoot..gone..

compared to the first time im there..i felt sad..disappointed..
im a very very serious nature lover..seeing this happens..i cant help it but to decide..not to apply sun lotion for the rest of the trip...not even once..and come bak kena gao gao..

now sunburn lik hell...skin drop..and to stop the itch..i apply the lotion cream every hour...to make sure it is moisture enuff..so the itch wont happen...>.<

wat will i do without u Ohh Vaseline!!!!>.<


working now..shouldnt be blogging..but...juz wana warm up my fingers b4 typing those complicated codes...ok..will update on more pics and a lot of things tat has been through my mind lately!! stay tuned...whoever tat is looking through..=.=.


oh ya..on another event..GD luck to Karen Tan!!! working at sega today!!! will go and kacao kacao her tonite..hahaha!!!

YOU!!!!

heads up : this is gonna be a short post as i m tooooo tired..juz come bak from work..=(..i will try my best to do watever i can to success!!

i Just MISSED u!!!! i miss u!!! i miss u!!! i miss u!!!...

dunno how to describe this feeling!!! >.<

but...will let it fade away then...=(

Turns up for the better? will it?

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice
I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me


Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

You And I Both by Jason Mraz





jeffrey h a o h a o says: the point is u ady noe the answer don't u ?
.:.:.:Gummy:.:.:. says: yea..u r rite...
.:.:.:Gummy:.:.:. says: but i wanna try to change it
.:.:.:Gummy:.:.:. says: u know?
.:.:.:Gummy:.:.:. says: kip it as it is
.:.:.:Gummy:.:.:. says: when everything turns for the better



but...when is everything going to turns up for the better?..=(

arhh...sux lar...i dunno y m i kip closing myself on me...so weird...i shouldnt be tat way..rite?
rite? rite? rite? arrhhh...fucking annoying lar me...=.=

get a grip of myself and get on with my life pls...mr.loh..=.=..


CAN I BUNGEE JUMP AGAIN??? i reall nid it now...=(
i miss bungee jump...T-T...

Fucking Emofied!

You and...
I are... like oil and water
And we've been trying, trying, trying
Ohhhhhhh... to mix it up.

We've been....
Dancing... on a volcano.
And we've been crying, crying, crying
Over blackened souls.

Oil and Water by Incubus


wahh...so long no post lyrics b4 post ady...as time passes..things changes i guess..like how i dun usually do Labels for all my post..but now..i do..and i used to post up lyrics b4 any post..but..i dun anymore..

i guess ppl do change..for better or worse..at least they change..stick with the same thing sounds boring aint it? hahaha...

sigh...i wish to go travel again...yea im going to redang this May 22nd..but still..i prefer to go sumplace else which i have nvr been b4~ but i do wish to go bak Koh Samui again...and Laos...and Bangkok...

I kip saying I wanted to go NZ...NZ..but ends up i spend the money on other stuff..lenses..travel locally..food..but nvr fashion...i mean not much on fashion..i like fashion but juz dun like to spend so much on'em..

today at the office...so many ppl down with sickness..*do take care guys*..and i felt so down out of a sudden..i tot tat being single, everyone should be happy rite?

most of them in a relationship having emo sessions or being down, i understand they might be sum cracks or sparks happen in thier relationship rite?...but i dun get it..

im fucking single and wat the fuck i get emo for? but seriously...i dun understand y...y i miss being in a relationship??...y i wan to take care of sumone?..do stuff like,take care of her..take pictures together..kiss her on the forehead without any reason..stare at her eyes for hours without having any valid reasons..

I luv doing tat..cuz if she is mine to cherish..i'll try my best and do wat i can to make her happy..

but i guess now..i will b doing tat in my dreams for 100000 years to come...let me die single-ly ba!! =(..


cut the crap...ive been taking a few weddings for the past weeks...here are sum i took...i hope u guys Comment on it! =)

B4 the Wedding Dinner..I ask my bro to b my model for a scene..=)
I've posted in facebook..i guess u guys saw this b4 rite?



Sunset outside the restaurant



My cousin



Both of them my cousin as well...so little eh? =P



The Siblings




Like Kena Shock Lik Dat..=.=




Don't They Just look so nice together? Machiko and Soon Lee~




This Guy Gone Case~





Dramatic faces..haha...LeeJuan~




Now u get wat i mean by Dramatic faces? haha...

That's all for now..will be uploading them on my facebook album later on when i m free...i took at least 1000++ pics on the wedding alone...and i've attend 2 different wedding last weekend..so...plenty of pics coming up!!!

Jason Roxxxxx~indeed

Im juz bak from autocity with JASON!!! miss u soo much dude....

juz the 2 of us..and we chatted for like from 10 to 1..

owh!! miss the time we do stupid stuff together...glad u gimme a call when u r bak here man...too bad u r going down tomolo...

believe it or not man...i will really put ur word into consideration...then we could be like duos of Malaysia...rite? haha...

anyway...kip in touch man..and kip shaggin'...

we should take more pics man...i took this off ur facebook..haha..cuz u look cool here...



p/s: thx for calling me about the accident..haha..i sound it was me who got into the accident..actually it was another suey dude who kena killed...i think..o.0...anyway..u take care and all the best!!!

da da dee dum dum dum dee dum dum~

the feeling still sux~ big time..

imagine the one and only sister not talking to u and blaming u for not letting her bf stay over and blaming u for fight bak with her bf who scolded alll ass over me...they say i spoiled her and luv her too much..but i dun think its her fault...

its tat fucking asshole who mess with her brain...wtf...i'll nvr forgive tat guy...


anyway on a much happier note..


im going down to subang again!!! for 4 days!!!! muahahahahahahahahahah!!!


all my fucking frens!! here i come!!

dear sis~

arhhh....can u juz pls talk to me?

we r a family u understand? id really like to sit down and talk to u but i juz dun understand how..

u didnt talk to grandma and didnt eat whole day cuz of me call dad for asking u to come bak early? for not letting ur 'fren' stay over at our house?

but u have to know that me..as ur brother..i have to take good care of u...plus with the security nowadays...how can i b not worried juz the two of u outside in the middle of nowhere at 3 am in the morning...

plus...wat ur 'fren' say to me..i nvr can forgiv him anymore...but i dun wan to lose u as a sister...its not worth it to argue cuz of a small matter furthermore...the fuzz started from a outsider...dont u see? tat juz tested out patience...

i was so hurt yesterday when i bought Häagen-Dazs ice cream for u since u really love tat...but then u dun wan to look at me and not even talk to me..and not even speak to grandma...

dear sis..grandma doesnt know anything about this...even if she talks about it..she doesnt mean any harm..y cant u juz understand how we really do care bout u?

yes tat guy really loves u..but then..to me..he lost my respect when he started to say those kind of words to me...and furthermore...those kind of things about daddy...sis...HE IS OUR DAD!! and yet sumone say sumthing lik dat about him and u didnt protect ur dad...have u seriously considered of tat b4?

there's so much i really wanted to say..but then...the more i talk mayb the more i make it worse..

i can't do anything but juz to wait u in the living room when u r out late..

fetch u food when u r really hungry and wanted to eat..

buy u anything u like..

bring u anywhere u wanted to go..

in the end...i juz wanna let u know...we really do love u..

if u wanted to scold anyone or hurt anyone pls..let it be me and not our parents...and grandma...they really really love u!

pls jo..think...k?

bad guy? cruel guy?

am i doing the bad guy out here? or the cruel one?

i juz feel so miserable...and yet...how do i tell her?

i dunno how to tell the story...but then..juz she is sooo stubborn i would say..but who wont in a midst of a very raging love relationship...everything he said is rite and everything her brother(me) say is wrong..

i'd tried my best to tell u properly...calmly...i finish my work at 1 in the morning..pls...i have patience my dear sister...and there's boundaries too...juz dun take it wayyy over~



im tired...but still im worried bout u...pls come bak early...pls...

grrrr~

i hate myself...



i cannot do better than this...=(..i really do hate it....

i should have die yesterday...wtf~

I almost go Ka-Boom!

i almost died yesterday!!!

while driving bak home from Subang...

i guess i was tired...sigh...but i hesitating to stop..

i almost go Ka-Boom with the divider in the middle at 130++km/h..i also dunno i was aslip=.=...

i was driving and i fell aslip till i felt tat the car was tilting to the other side of the road then i woke up and quickly turn the steering 90 degrees...luckily it was a three lane highway..i has the biggest CHILL sent out to my body in my life!!imagine the Bulu all over ur body stand up!! and funny thing is...the guy beside me still slipping soundly...without knowing we almost died and go Ka-Boom...haha...

after 10 mins later....





i feel aslip again! and this time noting big happens cuz i was driving quite slow..(or i fell aslip and didnt step on the oil pedal i dunno) then this car honk me at the bak...=.=...and this happens for another 2 times...haha...so tiring yet so extreme! wonder wat would happen if i did go Ka-Boom?

will sumone miss me?

Trees dancing wth the gust of wind

was slipping at the living room yesterday nite...

a lottttt of stuff going through my mind...wat would i be like in 5 years? 10 years....

will everything still be the same?
will i still have soo many frens around me cheering me up, giving me support?
or will i be a lonely asshole who live down by the road side(=P)

Jason Mraz...so good of him to sing me to slip..

at that moment..it feels like the time stopped and i was the only one alive..feeling the wind breeze blowing up to my face...tat feeling is so wonderful...yet lonely...will i still be tis lonely after 5 or 10 years?

Out of nowhere my mind remember a line from a movie, " if u listen quietly, u'll hear wonder.."
and so, i juz close my eyes..lying down on the sofa and listen quietly...

i heard sea...the waves hitting the shore..and car driving on the road side..the tress are dancing following the gust of the wind..its like the trees are having a good time with the wind as their partners..

if there's sumone right beside me, sharing tat moment together..it would be perfect..i would say : the best time of my life..

but i know i can't ask for sumthing so great while im juz a normal being..

to me i'm amaze tat although the music is still playing at the background..i dun hear any of it but juz the sea hitting the shore and the sound of wind...*sry Jason Mraz, ur album still rocks though*

i would go to the sea and juz lay on the sand and juz slip there one day...it muz be great!!

bad dreams makes me reflect!

do i really want wat i wan?

am i really doing wat i m doing?

I'd really wish I'm having a pint of fresh guinness down at the beach sipping and typing this blog..
but I'm down...and its raining so heavy now...how to go...
plus..drink a pint of beer...increases those fcuking fat tat I m trying to rid off for years!!

sigh...I nvr thought I would be tat weak...fever? walao...so fast fever...
and then I missed out the meeting with Mong and YH...damn~


can't slip well yesterday..been having bad dreams all nite and its 3 different kind of dreams..all bad ones..

i still remember it very clearly wats the dream all about...and sumhow..i still have the chill..its not about sumone getting killed or shit..but juz how it turns out if i really did tat particular sumthing..aihh..make me even more headache now..=(..

but tat dream makes me realise how great of status i m rite now..as in, i have a job with such caring colleagues..although sumtimes the politics i can't avoid..i still have to play with the game but still, they are professional and do wat they have to do with me..

i have loving family members, with dad tat loves me sooo bad, and my mum who stick my bak watever i do..siblings tat love me and allow me to bully them..hahha..

i get to like sumone ..*its a privilege =)*

i get so much frens tat love me so much and teach me a lot of things even though i m lame and stupid and inconsiderate at times..thx guys..*T-T tearing like hell now*

really headache..hate sickness..so weak of me..fuck..shit...going to rest now..=(..

~if we were to take the step we always dare to dream of taking, we will forever be dreaming of that what-if~

lurve the post from nicole...Nicole kiss! haha..


i was sumhow felt like it was talking about me...but not the money part...im not like the guy she is illustrating tat feeling worried bout money cuz to me, i still can do a lot of things without money..

but the thing i faced now is tat...i always wanted to try every single thing b4 i really settled down...and now...i m not...but with the economy nowadays...savings and preparing for the worse is wat comes first in my mind..

im stuck in the middle..continue to study? work? or go and look around for 3 months out of Malaysia then decide?

hmm....


and BTW..im not fear of risking...if fear of risking then why go and risk it at the first place?

life is more meaningful with challenges...personally..=)

this feeling sux!

head spinning...

body very cold...

cant even fully open my eyes...

can't concentrate...

shivering at times...

flu and cough..

im dead.......=(

go go go !!!

gambatte!

do ur best! i know u can...cuz i always belief in u..=)

cv = chingggg vaaaaa...=.=....CURRICULUM VITAE larrrr~ XD

New toy...=)

i've got a new toy!!!! ~♥


well..one of the new toy....haha...sound so lansi hor...indeed i m...tsk tsk..nola..


showing one of two...show the other one next time..!=)

!!!!!!!


are u damn excited as i m?! =)

i luv it here!

was driving pass the fields of gold on my way to work juz now...Its padi field btw...

my dad told me about this place yesterday..so i took a long route to work juz to get a glance of this padi...i've been living in kedah for 20 years but nvr really stop and take a wondering look at padi field around there..

i was driving through..and i saw such a nicee scenery...but too bad i can't stop my car at the side and take a few snaps of it cuz of the narrow road..

at that moment...i feel relieved...the scenery soo nice...the hills..the mountain at the back...with the fog..everything..its juz perfect..i mean the scenery..its so nice...

was thinking how lucky i m to stay nearby this wonderful place...and how regret i m for staying here 20 years and not passed through here even once!

for freaking 20 years..i only pass through here the first time today...and it really do amaze me...

if its not for the buildings tat the stupid government built on it..the scenery would be more perfect!!

i drove at the speed of 20km/h..with other cars over taking me...i dun care...i juz wanna indulge in this scenery...it was one of Malaysia's best!


that resulted in im late to office for 10 mins..haha...but wth! i love my home! =)
and fuck goverment for ruined it!grrrr!!

bite u with my gummy teeth!!

i met louis pang!

went to Pisa today....come bak a happy man boy!

Not only did i met LOUIS PANG!! i voluntered to be a model for the longest 10 minutes of my life!!

i have a pic taken with him! i shook his hands! and tell him tat im the silly person that wrongly noted his price in my blog!!

and i think he remembers me....*i hope*...>.<

although my name is WEI HAO..he kips calling me WEI SHEN, WEI SHEN...but still its a nice experiance...wth...he is bz k? and i understand....juz so happy to be on the stage with him..


i will work hard on my photography and attend his workshop one day!


pic will be uploaded when i come bak from exercise and breakfast tomolo..

cheers! =)


p/s: i bought another new toy!! =P

my gratitude!!! and Louis Pang !!!

Its near the end of the working hours of the day...wait a minute..i dun have time regulations in my job....=.=...anyway...

worked till 2 am yesterday slept at 2.45...to rush the project tat boss asked me to do...but i do hope tat i do a good job cuz i always have the urge of doing not enuff and not tat good compared to others...i nid to learn more and do a better job...not for others..but for myself...

come in at 8.30 in the morning today..was kinda dizzy..all thx to my grandma waking up early to make me breakfast even though i ask her there's no nid to...i usually make breakfast myself u see and i wanted her to rest more...but she still insist waking up at 7, and make me fried rice or watever to see tat im nvr go to work empty stomached..i love u popo..=)

finish everything around 10 in the morning and then the webpage is up! great! haha...

special thx to vincent ONG!! punani!!!! i wash my arse...hahaha....

and Mong for helping me all the way and b patience with me!! =)

i wanted to get off the computers for few days...till next monday...but see how it goes..im going to the bridal fair at Pisa tomolo morning..i m going to meet louis pang...in person!! hahahaha...omg...i m so excited i wanna cum now..>.<..not tat cum lar..=.=..i juz knew about him few weeks ago and i juz stupid-ly blogged about him and *poof*..he shows up and left a comment on my blog...urghh..i feel so stupid now...there will be lots and lots of photographer out there tomolo..and me being a novice with no speedlite and only 1000D...hope i do great though...>.<..

and sunday juz wanna spend all day long at home with my dogs and parents..i've save enuff money to buy canon's 18-200mm lens..rm2000...sigh...

i really do hope i know how to take good photography though...wanted to buy a speedlite but nvr really get the chance to...>.<..

if u know who u are...

i really missed talking to u..

really...

i do...

all the best and have fun during the weekends..=)

i wanted to go!! =(

Keat juz sent me this email..and i really really really really really wanted to go!!


i juz afraid i still nid to work on the weekends then i can't go ady..=(..

SCHEDULE

10 April 2009 (FRIDAY)

11.00am

- Opening ceremony - Speech - Dance performance with the theme of Bridal & Photography - 开幕典礼与致词 - 数码相机与婚纱舞蹈表演

11 April 2009 (SATURDAY)

11.00am	Photography Talk by Louis Pang Studio<---(its LOUIS PANG!! the guy who left msg on my blog!!!) 数码摄影讲座会
12.30pm	Photography Talk by Louis Pang Studio<----(wtf!!! i muz meet him!! shake his hand!! camwhore with him!!) 数码摄影讲座会
1.30pm	Digital Camera Modeling Show 数码相机时尚Show
2.00pm	Singing Performance by Jing Ling Entertainment 歌唱节目 - 精灵娱乐国际联盟呈献实力偶像JO钲杰，创作歌手ROY，精灵少女组
3.00pm	Bridal Show 2009 by De' Santia, Milan, Regal Bride, Ideal Wedding 魅力09婚纱经典Show
4.00pm	D&L Bridal Show by Blissful Bridal D&L 婚纱秀

12 April 2009 (SUNDAY)

1.00pm	Digital Camera Modeling Show 数码相机时尚Show
1.30pm	Body Painting Performance by Ivy Professional Make-up Studio Ivy 专业化妆学院呈献环保概念人体彩绘造型表演
2.30pm	Bridal Show 2009 by Crystal Brides, France Taipei, Kuang Yee, Stareast 魅力09婚纱经典Show
3.30pm	D&L Bridal Show by Blissful Bridal D&L 婚纱秀
4.30pm	Singing Performance by Jing Ling Entertainment 歌唱节目 - 精灵娱乐国际联盟呈献实力偶像JO钲杰，创作歌手ROY，精灵少女组
8.00pm	LUCKY DRAW 幸运抽奖

You're always the one...=)

It's been a while..

nvr thought I can hold this long..

I always hope tat we had the chance to talk more..

but I know u got things to do..

I'll let you be..

we'll part for now..

and put hopes on future,

I guess..





even if I tell how I feel..

about you..

then what?

are we to b together happily ever after?

are we to be a couple,

that will love with our fullest of hearts?

are we to achieve wat we both wanted?

that will travel together and be indulge in sweet memories?
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are we?
will we?
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you're always The one..

The one that make me goes crazy over you with few words..

The one that teaches me about things in life..

The one that make me feel good about myself..

but most of all,

I know,

that you are,

The one I want to take care of with all my life,

The one i want to spend my life with,

The one that i will made all promise to,

The only one who knows how I feel about you..

The one that..

I'm Willing to lose my life,

just to tell you,

i really liked you from the start!

but..

should i?

and..

will you?