da da dee dum dum dum dee dum dum~

the feeling still sux~ big time..

imagine the one and only sister not talking to u and blaming u for not letting her bf stay over and blaming u for fight bak with her bf who scolded alll ass over me...they say i spoiled her and luv her too much..but i dun think its her fault...

its tat fucking asshole who mess with her brain...wtf...i'll nvr forgive tat guy...


anyway on a much happier note..


im going down to subang again!!! for 4 days!!!! muahahahahahahahahahah!!!


all my fucking frens!! here i come!!

dear sis~

arhhh....can u juz pls talk to me?

we r a family u understand? id really like to sit down and talk to u but i juz dun understand how..

u didnt talk to grandma and didnt eat whole day cuz of me call dad for asking u to come bak early? for not letting ur 'fren' stay over at our house?

but u have to know that me..as ur brother..i have to take good care of u...plus with the security nowadays...how can i b not worried juz the two of u outside in the middle of nowhere at 3 am in the morning...

plus...wat ur 'fren' say to me..i nvr can forgiv him anymore...but i dun wan to lose u as a sister...its not worth it to argue cuz of a small matter furthermore...the fuzz started from a outsider...dont u see? tat juz tested out patience...

i was so hurt yesterday when i bought Häagen-Dazs ice cream for u since u really love tat...but then u dun wan to look at me and not even talk to me..and not even speak to grandma...

dear sis..grandma doesnt know anything about this...even if she talks about it..she doesnt mean any harm..y cant u juz understand how we really do care bout u?

yes tat guy really loves u..but then..to me..he lost my respect when he started to say those kind of words to me...and furthermore...those kind of things about daddy...sis...HE IS OUR DAD!! and yet sumone say sumthing lik dat about him and u didnt protect ur dad...have u seriously considered of tat b4?

there's so much i really wanted to say..but then...the more i talk mayb the more i make it worse..

i can't do anything but juz to wait u in the living room when u r out late..

fetch u food when u r really hungry and wanted to eat..

buy u anything u like..

bring u anywhere u wanted to go..

in the end...i juz wanna let u know...we really do love u..

if u wanted to scold anyone or hurt anyone pls..let it be me and not our parents...and grandma...they really really love u!

pls jo..think...k?

bad guy? cruel guy?

am i doing the bad guy out here? or the cruel one?

i juz feel so miserable...and yet...how do i tell her?

i dunno how to tell the story...but then..juz she is sooo stubborn i would say..but who wont in a midst of a very raging love relationship...everything he said is rite and everything her brother(me) say is wrong..

i'd tried my best to tell u properly...calmly...i finish my work at 1 in the morning..pls...i have patience my dear sister...and there's boundaries too...juz dun take it wayyy over~



im tired...but still im worried bout u...pls come bak early...pls...

grrrr~

i hate myself...



i cannot do better than this...=(..i really do hate it....

i should have die yesterday...wtf~

I almost go Ka-Boom!

i almost died yesterday!!!

while driving bak home from Subang...

i guess i was tired...sigh...but i hesitating to stop..

i almost go Ka-Boom with the divider in the middle at 130++km/h..i also dunno i was aslip=.=...

i was driving and i fell aslip till i felt tat the car was tilting to the other side of the road then i woke up and quickly turn the steering 90 degrees...luckily it was a three lane highway..i has the biggest CHILL sent out to my body in my life!!imagine the Bulu all over ur body stand up!! and funny thing is...the guy beside me still slipping soundly...without knowing we almost died and go Ka-Boom...haha...

after 10 mins later....





i feel aslip again! and this time noting big happens cuz i was driving quite slow..(or i fell aslip and didnt step on the oil pedal i dunno) then this car honk me at the bak...=.=...and this happens for another 2 times...haha...so tiring yet so extreme! wonder wat would happen if i did go Ka-Boom?

will sumone miss me?

Trees dancing wth the gust of wind

was slipping at the living room yesterday nite...

a lottttt of stuff going through my mind...wat would i be like in 5 years? 10 years....

will everything still be the same?
will i still have soo many frens around me cheering me up, giving me support?
or will i be a lonely asshole who live down by the road side(=P)

Jason Mraz...so good of him to sing me to slip..

at that moment..it feels like the time stopped and i was the only one alive..feeling the wind breeze blowing up to my face...tat feeling is so wonderful...yet lonely...will i still be tis lonely after 5 or 10 years?

Out of nowhere my mind remember a line from a movie, " if u listen quietly, u'll hear wonder.."
and so, i juz close my eyes..lying down on the sofa and listen quietly...

i heard sea...the waves hitting the shore..and car driving on the road side..the tress are dancing following the gust of the wind..its like the trees are having a good time with the wind as their partners..

if there's sumone right beside me, sharing tat moment together..it would be perfect..i would say : the best time of my life..

but i know i can't ask for sumthing so great while im juz a normal being..

to me i'm amaze tat although the music is still playing at the background..i dun hear any of it but juz the sea hitting the shore and the sound of wind...*sry Jason Mraz, ur album still rocks though*

i would go to the sea and juz lay on the sand and juz slip there one day...it muz be great!!

bad dreams makes me reflect!

do i really want wat i wan?

am i really doing wat i m doing?

I'd really wish I'm having a pint of fresh guinness down at the beach sipping and typing this blog..
but I'm down...and its raining so heavy now...how to go...
plus..drink a pint of beer...increases those fcuking fat tat I m trying to rid off for years!!

sigh...I nvr thought I would be tat weak...fever? walao...so fast fever...
and then I missed out the meeting with Mong and YH...damn~


can't slip well yesterday..been having bad dreams all nite and its 3 different kind of dreams..all bad ones..

i still remember it very clearly wats the dream all about...and sumhow..i still have the chill..its not about sumone getting killed or shit..but juz how it turns out if i really did tat particular sumthing..aihh..make me even more headache now..=(..

but tat dream makes me realise how great of status i m rite now..as in, i have a job with such caring colleagues..although sumtimes the politics i can't avoid..i still have to play with the game but still, they are professional and do wat they have to do with me..

i have loving family members, with dad tat loves me sooo bad, and my mum who stick my bak watever i do..siblings tat love me and allow me to bully them..hahha..

i get to like sumone ..*its a privilege =)*

i get so much frens tat love me so much and teach me a lot of things even though i m lame and stupid and inconsiderate at times..thx guys..*T-T tearing like hell now*

really headache..hate sickness..so weak of me..fuck..shit...going to rest now..=(..

~if we were to take the step we always dare to dream of taking, we will forever be dreaming of that what-if~

lurve the post from nicole...Nicole kiss! haha..


i was sumhow felt like it was talking about me...but not the money part...im not like the guy she is illustrating tat feeling worried bout money cuz to me, i still can do a lot of things without money..

but the thing i faced now is tat...i always wanted to try every single thing b4 i really settled down...and now...i m not...but with the economy nowadays...savings and preparing for the worse is wat comes first in my mind..

im stuck in the middle..continue to study? work? or go and look around for 3 months out of Malaysia then decide?

hmm....


and BTW..im not fear of risking...if fear of risking then why go and risk it at the first place?

life is more meaningful with challenges...personally..=)

this feeling sux!

head spinning...

body very cold...

cant even fully open my eyes...

can't concentrate...

shivering at times...

flu and cough..

im dead.......=(

go go go !!!

gambatte!

do ur best! i know u can...cuz i always belief in u..=)

cv = chingggg vaaaaa...=.=....CURRICULUM VITAE larrrr~ XD

New toy...=)

i've got a new toy!!!! ~♥


well..one of the new toy....haha...sound so lansi hor...indeed i m...tsk tsk..nola..


showing one of two...show the other one next time..!=)

!!!!!!!


are u damn excited as i m?! =)

i luv it here!

was driving pass the fields of gold on my way to work juz now...Its padi field btw...

my dad told me about this place yesterday..so i took a long route to work juz to get a glance of this padi...i've been living in kedah for 20 years but nvr really stop and take a wondering look at padi field around there..

i was driving through..and i saw such a nicee scenery...but too bad i can't stop my car at the side and take a few snaps of it cuz of the narrow road..

at that moment...i feel relieved...the scenery soo nice...the hills..the mountain at the back...with the fog..everything..its juz perfect..i mean the scenery..its so nice...

was thinking how lucky i m to stay nearby this wonderful place...and how regret i m for staying here 20 years and not passed through here even once!

for freaking 20 years..i only pass through here the first time today...and it really do amaze me...

if its not for the buildings tat the stupid government built on it..the scenery would be more perfect!!

i drove at the speed of 20km/h..with other cars over taking me...i dun care...i juz wanna indulge in this scenery...it was one of Malaysia's best!


that resulted in im late to office for 10 mins..haha...but wth! i love my home! =)
and fuck goverment for ruined it!grrrr!!

bite u with my gummy teeth!!

i met louis pang!

went to Pisa today....come bak a happy man boy!

Not only did i met LOUIS PANG!! i voluntered to be a model for the longest 10 minutes of my life!!

i have a pic taken with him! i shook his hands! and tell him tat im the silly person that wrongly noted his price in my blog!!

and i think he remembers me....*i hope*...>.<

although my name is WEI HAO..he kips calling me WEI SHEN, WEI SHEN...but still its a nice experiance...wth...he is bz k? and i understand....juz so happy to be on the stage with him..


i will work hard on my photography and attend his workshop one day!


pic will be uploaded when i come bak from exercise and breakfast tomolo..

cheers! =)


p/s: i bought another new toy!! =P

my gratitude!!! and Louis Pang !!!

Its near the end of the working hours of the day...wait a minute..i dun have time regulations in my job....=.=...anyway...

worked till 2 am yesterday slept at 2.45...to rush the project tat boss asked me to do...but i do hope tat i do a good job cuz i always have the urge of doing not enuff and not tat good compared to others...i nid to learn more and do a better job...not for others..but for myself...

come in at 8.30 in the morning today..was kinda dizzy..all thx to my grandma waking up early to make me breakfast even though i ask her there's no nid to...i usually make breakfast myself u see and i wanted her to rest more...but she still insist waking up at 7, and make me fried rice or watever to see tat im nvr go to work empty stomached..i love u popo..=)

finish everything around 10 in the morning and then the webpage is up! great! haha...

special thx to vincent ONG!! punani!!!! i wash my arse...hahaha....

and Mong for helping me all the way and b patience with me!! =)

i wanted to get off the computers for few days...till next monday...but see how it goes..im going to the bridal fair at Pisa tomolo morning..i m going to meet louis pang...in person!! hahahaha...omg...i m so excited i wanna cum now..>.<..not tat cum lar..=.=..i juz knew about him few weeks ago and i juz stupid-ly blogged about him and *poof*..he shows up and left a comment on my blog...urghh..i feel so stupid now...there will be lots and lots of photographer out there tomolo..and me being a novice with no speedlite and only 1000D...hope i do great though...>.<..

and sunday juz wanna spend all day long at home with my dogs and parents..i've save enuff money to buy canon's 18-200mm lens..rm2000...sigh...

i really do hope i know how to take good photography though...wanted to buy a speedlite but nvr really get the chance to...>.<..

if u know who u are...

i really missed talking to u..

really...

i do...

all the best and have fun during the weekends..=)

i wanted to go!! =(

Keat juz sent me this email..and i really really really really really wanted to go!!


i juz afraid i still nid to work on the weekends then i can't go ady..=(..

SCHEDULE

10 April 2009 (FRIDAY)

11.00am

- Opening ceremony - Speech - Dance performance with the theme of Bridal & Photography - 开幕典礼与致词 - 数码相机与婚纱舞蹈表演

11 April 2009 (SATURDAY)

11.00am	Photography Talk by Louis Pang Studio<---(its LOUIS PANG!! the guy who left msg on my blog!!!) 数码摄影讲座会
12.30pm	Photography Talk by Louis Pang Studio<----(wtf!!! i muz meet him!! shake his hand!! camwhore with him!!) 数码摄影讲座会
1.30pm	Digital Camera Modeling Show 数码相机时尚Show
2.00pm	Singing Performance by Jing Ling Entertainment 歌唱节目 - 精灵娱乐国际联盟呈献实力偶像JO钲杰，创作歌手ROY，精灵少女组
3.00pm	Bridal Show 2009 by De' Santia, Milan, Regal Bride, Ideal Wedding 魅力09婚纱经典Show
4.00pm	D&L Bridal Show by Blissful Bridal D&L 婚纱秀

12 April 2009 (SUNDAY)

1.00pm	Digital Camera Modeling Show 数码相机时尚Show
1.30pm	Body Painting Performance by Ivy Professional Make-up Studio Ivy 专业化妆学院呈献环保概念人体彩绘造型表演
2.30pm	Bridal Show 2009 by Crystal Brides, France Taipei, Kuang Yee, Stareast 魅力09婚纱经典Show
3.30pm	D&L Bridal Show by Blissful Bridal D&L 婚纱秀
4.30pm	Singing Performance by Jing Ling Entertainment 歌唱节目 - 精灵娱乐国际联盟呈献实力偶像JO钲杰，创作歌手ROY，精灵少女组
8.00pm	LUCKY DRAW 幸运抽奖

You're always the one...=)

It's been a while..

nvr thought I can hold this long..

I always hope tat we had the chance to talk more..

but I know u got things to do..

I'll let you be..

we'll part for now..

and put hopes on future,

I guess..





even if I tell how I feel..

about you..

then what?

are we to b together happily ever after?

are we to be a couple,

that will love with our fullest of hearts?

are we to achieve wat we both wanted?

that will travel together and be indulge in sweet memories?
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.
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are we?
will we?
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.
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you're always The one..

The one that make me goes crazy over you with few words..

The one that teaches me about things in life..

The one that make me feel good about myself..

but most of all,

I know,

that you are,

The one I want to take care of with all my life,

The one i want to spend my life with,

The one that i will made all promise to,

The only one who knows how I feel about you..

The one that..

I'm Willing to lose my life,

just to tell you,

i really liked you from the start!

but..

should i?

and..

will you?

updates : am i mature enuff?

i've been rather bz this few days...or might be weeks i'm not sure...i can't even kip track of wat day is today or wats the date...i know the time cuz im rushing and helping other colleagues with their work...

had a 2 hour meeting with Boss today..talk about a lot of stuff other than work stuff..and met a few of his frens as well...tat's a good thing i guess building up my networking..

feel rather odd though...he only ask me to go and had lunch with him, have tea with him and almost all the time, only me who spend time with him..am i really tat good in talking with grown ups? hahaha..

been through a lot and learn a lot of stuff..i had a feeling lik this has been few years but slap myself* knock my head on the wall...then baru i know..its only few days...

and its rather peaceful and enjoyment these few days..staying at the beach side...admiring the scenery after work..chatting with foreign frens while working downstairs at the lounge area..i kinda lik the life here..

taken a few pics but forget to bring the cable to transfer those pics from 1000D..will do it this friday when im bak to Kulim..but rite now..i juz couldnt describe how i feel...after a really really bz day at work...come bak and work at those environment..really calms and i feel happy...

today i woke up at 8 in the morning..work at the apartment till 1 and then went to work..no restriction on our jobs but then have to make sure we finish our job...have been slipping at 3 am every morning...to finish my job..

does tat makes me more mature?

although im bz, i still have the time to think hell lots of stuff..Diversify tats wat they call it..haha..but then after a while i would snooze off and wake up and continue my job again..

everyday after im bak from home..i would dine in with my grandma..she would cook very nice meals and all...after lunch i would go for a swim or went gym downstairs..after tat i would work either outside the balcony watching the sea or will go to the other side of the block and online at the lounge..

bz but excited!

although im so fucking bz with my work rite now...(seriously...very)...

hands are cold,
heart is beating at a very very weird rate!!
can't really focus my work at a moment rite there...
which means : ~

im damn nervous and excited...

=)