I've been bz!! with SHOPPING!!

These few days I have been going out with my friends. Ryan, Jack and Jong, but all with the presence of my sisters, Regina and Tina. At first I was only going to make my glasses and stay at home for the rest of the time but who knows. Haha. Guess that I miss shopping with friends. I’ve been to One Utama with Ryan, Tina and Regina. Ryan pick us up at my house and we all went out for dinner. It was Friday and I quitted clubbing for the time being. Where to go other than malls right?

Well we decided to go to One Utama cause its near to Tina’s and we can have dinner over there. We had barbeque plaza A.K.A dinosaur meal. It was nice and we choose it there because Regina never dine in there before. We choose it over a Japanese restaurant. After the meal we went to shopping for my boxers. We went in to TOPMAN. And oh my god! A lot of the garments were 50% off. I can’t believe my eyes. How come it can be so cheap. I really doubt it. Although its 50% off it still cost around RM 80++ for a jeans. But I do think its worth it.

I do have the chance to talk and walk around the mall with Ryan and we had a more deeper and understandable conversation about his life and his love life. Of course I share mine too. Well, he is good looking and all. Guess how many girlfriend’s’ he had before. 5 serious relationship girls and uncountable flirts with others. I wish I am him. T-T. Just kidding. After all the shopping we meet up with the girls and went back home. 3 of them went to clubbing at The Bar near KLCC. Seems like one of Reggie’s friends is acting as a DJ over there. Named ERNEST. Well, I keep to my vows not to club until I get good results, so I was left alone at my room and all of them went on without me. I read magazines that I bought from the mall I went on earlier. Men’s health and Stuff! magazine. Half way there, I feel asleep already. Lame~ZzZzZzZzZz..

Well the next day when I woke up I saw Tina’s sleeping at Regina’s bed and both of them were asleep. I was at that time thinking what I wanted to do for the day and suddenly Regina’s phone rang and apparently her friend is fetching us to make our spectacles. His name is Daniel and he is a kind and interesting person. Imagine, at the age of 24 and he is driving a LEXUS!!! Can u imagine. I still don’t know that it is Lexus until we were eating at the New Restaurant Ipoh Chicken Rice then I know it was Lexus. At first I thought it was something like Toyota Camry, but then I notice that the roof of the car can be open like my Rexton. Then I kept on thinking does this guy modify this car? How come I am so stupid didn’t know it was Lexus. ‘Mempersiasuikan saje’. Sigh.

When he offer to pay for our lunch and ask me to pay for him next time he is at Penang (I always get this kind of saying by my friends and eventually they never showed up -.-!!). After that we went to Sungai Wang to meet up with his friends who is working with Focus Point. He bring us to Optical City. It is a big place with all sorts of frames and brands. I walk around and take a look at other brands while he chooses for Regina. I came on to this corner and saw the word CONVERSE. I was like yelling at him, open this. Show me, show me. For you guys who don’t really know me, I am a huge converse fan. Especially on those Chuck Taylor’s and the stars. Imagine Avril wearing those on stage, imagine Paul Walker wearing Chuck’s at the scene of The Fast and the Furious II. It all sums up and says ‘Yeah, I’m Famous!!’.

I compared one CK and the CONVERSE. And of course I choose the CONVERSE for sure. What more can I say, CONVERSE the best. After that, Daniel’s went off to see his boss and me and Reggie continue with the shopping. She had a shopping list! We went to SASA and bought a few of her stuff.

When I saw the brand Kanebo I think of my ex-. Again! She use this brand as well. Her parents bought her a full set of the cosmetic from this brand and she loves it that’s how I know it. Her finals is coming, I wonder how is she doing now. Despite the fact she got A in her Marketing. I believe that she will do great in her finals. God Bless you and all the best LUI.=)

I still remember the day they bought the cosmetic for her. They have makeup artist makeup for her and make her all charming and looking elegant. But most it was the feeling. She was so happy for everything on that day. Her mum told me that she should be, as her father pay for a lot of money for it. When they get back from Gurney that day, her father take shoots of her. A lot of them. And she is acting like a model. A pro she is. As she has always been.

Back to the reality, we went to Low Yat and I have to update myself after for such a long time never touch magazines bout technology. It was so crowded and it was very hard to get around at that time. And of course I bring Reggie to ALL IT. I was checking out the HDD and Rams and all other stuff and then I saw the speaker from Edifier. It’s a new model. It is call Darth. It has the similar shape of Darth Vader I think. And it’s all black with red lining on the satellite. I remember I saw it at the Stuff! Magazine when I was gazing through. Then I always check out at the bag section to see whether they have Krumpler bags sample or not. I love Krumpler.=)

Then I saw the sections from Golla. I told Regina that I have a phone patch from Fish. And it was Golla. And I told her that it has lifetime warranty. She looks interested in it and ask me to be quick cause she wanted to go through all the stalls in Low Yat to look for her own ‘Golla’. We walk to all the places that would have sell Golla. And eventually she didn’t find the design she likes and we end up sitting in Bistro Delifrance in Sungai Wang. Apparently there’s a artist performing there and I don’t really know who because I am not interest in Chinese songs and artist.

While sitting and eating and drinking my cafe mocha, it was delicious btw. We chatted all the way, about our family and how nice it is if we are back at Penang and hanging out right now with our family. She sounded sad because she can only has 2 day off from Air Asia. 5^th and 6^th. Which she can have the reunion dinner but not the first day of Chinese New Year. And I, have holidays from 1st till the 8^th. And my midterm is at the 11^th. Can u imagine. I have to be back on the 9^th. That makes me sad as well. I have so much plan for the Chinese new year with my family but too bad I can’t participate in any of it.

We walk up to 4^th floor to meet up with Jack and Jong. They said the traffic was fucking heavy. That’s why they took so long to reach there. Anyway, Jong and Reggie went on shopping while I and Jack went on shopping for his PSP games. We went shopping and went to Midvalley for dinner. We meet up with Zheng Huan, Tina and Kai Lun there. Miss those guys. We had sushi king. And had a lot of fun with them. Especially the SM undergarment I was planning to buy for Jack and Jong on their anniversary. And Jack was talking bout putting golf ball into Zheng Huan mouth. Using the whip on him.

After the dinner, we went on to S.Hartamas Uncle Don’s for shisha! We ordered grape flavor~. At first Jack ordered the special flavour but then they ran out of it so we have to just settle with grape. We chatted all the way till 1 am and Jack bring us back and that’s it. Having a lot of fun during these 2 days. I love my LIFE!!!

9th Jan(could'nt think of a better title)

I was on a normal class. And it Mr. Kumar gives us a break for 5 mins. And between that time papa called. I was wondering why he called. And he ask me whether I am on a class and I replied yes. But who knows he called to tell me about my results from the previous semester. I understand from the beginning that the first and second semester wasn’t that good and for the record, it was really seriously bad. I admit that I have fun for like 80% and study for 20%. I can’t blame any other people than me. It was my fault. I should have listened to papa advice and not to get close to any relationship and now I am in big trouble. I have wasted almost 20,000 on papa’s money to study in Taylor’s and now that I got the chance and I didn’t grab on it hard enough.

He sounded very sad. I bet any father who saw his son result was as bad as mine they would sound the same as him. At that time I don’t know what more can I say. I try to told him that I was Sorry but I don’t know how to open my mouth. He was asking me to reconsider whether am I right for this course.

Since I was on high school. I’ve never really put effort on my studies. Not only that. No matter how much papa tell me about my future or other important stuff that is regarded bout my life, i just keep on nodded and tell him that I understand. At first I really do understand. But after a while, like a few weeks after I would completely forget about it. And after that I would continue flunking my studies.

At that particular time, I really wished I could tell out loud to papa, tell him to give me one more chance. One last chance. The golden ticket. If I dun get it this time then that really proved that I am not selected for the business field. But then the way he talks to me makes my tears just want to drop. I mean, I have no idea how sad he sounded. It is the first time I heard him talking like this. Makes me feel so guilty. Guilty of wasting his money on all the liquors, all the party, all the clubbing and all the promises I broke.

I still remember papa last sentence. It keep playing inside my mind until now. He says go and evaluate yourself. Think of what you have done and what u want to achieve in your life. This makes me feel so embarrassing. I suddenly realised that I haven’t really achieve what I wanted in my life. The more I think of it, the more guilty I felt. After some thought. I was considering whether should I go back on Chinese New Year and have dinner with them on the lunar Chinese New Year. I don’t have the guts to face my papa anymore. Well it has occurred many times. I don’t have the courage to talk to him and I just let it go.

Should I or shouldn’t I? I still couldn’t make up my mind. Actually I was trying my best starting this semester. But how can I tell him without scoring an A for investment? I mean how can I prove it to him that I was working very hard for it?

I don’t know how do I start. I mean I was working very hard for this new semester cause I was ready to change into a new me. But what papa said was right. I never changed since high school till now. After what I listened and after he close the phone on me. I don’t have the intention to study anymore. I mean for today particular class. I don’t know how to react after that incident. At the exact moment I really wished how I can’t not going back for Chinese New Year. I wanted to call Vincent and tell him all about it. But I know for sure that he will ask me to go back on CNY. But if I go back I don’t want to face papa. The main reason I am thinking like this is because I don’t know how to face him. Maybe I just stay here with Regina. Until I think I am worthy enough to go back?

Should I be thinking like that? Worthiness. Is that the right words to use? I don’t know what to think anymore. I don’t want to see papa so sad anymore. I mean at least he still got himself a good daughter and a handsome son right? What he need in me anyway? I am lazy, he is sad with me, I am fat. What more he needs in me? I really wish that someone is right by my side talking to me about all my problem but I can’t find one appropriate person to talk to. I know I shouldn’t be thinking about Lui at this time cause I should let her go. But I really wished that she is here and I can talk to her about everything. At least there is someone is here for me right? I don’t want to say anything anymore. Signed off.=(