updates : am i mature enuff?

i've been rather bz this few days...or might be weeks i'm not sure...i can't even kip track of wat day is today or wats the date...i know the time cuz im rushing and helping other colleagues with their work...

had a 2 hour meeting with Boss today..talk about a lot of stuff other than work stuff..and met a few of his frens as well...tat's a good thing i guess building up my networking..

feel rather odd though...he only ask me to go and had lunch with him, have tea with him and almost all the time, only me who spend time with him..am i really tat good in talking with grown ups? hahaha..

been through a lot and learn a lot of stuff..i had a feeling lik this has been few years but slap myself* knock my head on the wall...then baru i know..its only few days...

and its rather peaceful and enjoyment these few days..staying at the beach side...admiring the scenery after work..chatting with foreign frens while working downstairs at the lounge area..i kinda lik the life here..

taken a few pics but forget to bring the cable to transfer those pics from 1000D..will do it this friday when im bak to Kulim..but rite now..i juz couldnt describe how i feel...after a really really bz day at work...come bak and work at those environment..really calms and i feel happy...

today i woke up at 8 in the morning..work at the apartment till 1 and then went to work..no restriction on our jobs but then have to make sure we finish our job...have been slipping at 3 am every morning...to finish my job..

does tat makes me more mature?

although im bz, i still have the time to think hell lots of stuff..Diversify tats wat they call it..haha..but then after a while i would snooze off and wake up and continue my job again..

everyday after im bak from home..i would dine in with my grandma..she would cook very nice meals and all...after lunch i would go for a swim or went gym downstairs..after tat i would work either outside the balcony watching the sea or will go to the other side of the block and online at the lounge..

sum thoughts to think about~

sumtimes in life..there's a lot of decision u have to make.but then when the time comes.u get nervous and dunno wat decision to make.

i dunno wat to do....

i nid time and a nice zen place to reflect myself...truly reflect myself.

im 20...turning 21...wat do i have planned for my future? wat will happen if im 5 years older than now...10 years...

will i be marrying the one i love...or will i still be single? successful person? or juz middle income dude who drive a normal car?

do i still b the challenging and do-watever-i-wan type or i've change to a more stable and do-watever-i-should guy?

do i still be hanging out with the same frens? or new frens will come along?

will i still be living in Malaysia or i will be running around the world staying at different places,exploring new place..?

will my relationship with my parents and siblings change? better or worse? will i go to visit all of my frens all around the world?

will i be buying my own house and my own car?

will i kip my figure? or become thinner fitter or fatter and uglier?

do i wanna get married? do i wanna have children?

how am i going to handle all those miserable life in the future?

will the economy get better? will one day, a chinese hakka dude or indian macha become the prime minister of Malaysia?

Will i go bak to study after i worked here for few years? In KL or go to the states?

will i be dead tomolo? or the day after tomolo?

how do i stop being stubborn?

will i ever get mature? wat issit to be like a mature guy who gets the girl he likes/luv?

will i be turning bak on my decisions after i made them? i sure hope not...

damn, do i jus think too much...?
i think i do...=.=